A New Year

I can't believe I haven't posted since October. This has to stop. I mean, stopping has to stop, and posting has to begin. It's not as if nothing ever happens.

Spring is on the way. I sat in the sun for a few minutes yesterday and felt normal for the first time in weeks. I hope it happens again.

After one week of really bad depression (Ha, had you fooled! I was outwardly cheerful and polite all the time, except I had to escape to my room every so often.), one week of terrible stress, and one week of total exhaustion--this week will have to be different. It's impossible to predict what kind of different it will be, but maybe I could apply this principle, Thank God for what he is about to do.

And you know that the stone cut out without hands is going to grow into a mountain that will fill the whole earth, so you know that praying along that line is valid.

They say not to despise the day of small things, or not to undervalue them. So even though they don't look like much, they are connected to the bigger picture, where Messiah saves to the uttermost those that come unto God by him, and he receives the nations for an inheritance. etc.

That said, it is possible to become more or less content with the present situation (which is not the same as having contentment in the present situation), and have some vague hope that things will get better eventually. It's true, they will, but they will also get worse, and in what way and in what order no one knows. And how will they get better if no one cares, no one prays, and no one works? Or how will we be effective if we propel ourselves with our own zeal and justify ourselves by our good intentions, and never stop to listen to what the Spirit is saying?

Asking for help is relatively easy, and you should definitely do that. But when you continue to focus on your own desperate condition, you can miss what God has already done, what He has promised, and what He is.

"All scripture [is] given by inspiration of God, and [is] profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness:"